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Graduation

I was thrilled about a week ago to officially graduate from my Creative Writing with English Literature degree course at Kingston University, attaining a not-to-be-sniffed at Upper Second Class degree. I wasn’t the only one – definitely check out my friend Charlotte’s similar blogpost about graduation!

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Overall, I was thrilled by the day and it’s a moment to cherish and be proud of as it’s the culmination of three years hard work. Yes university for me has been a mixed bag, especially at Kingston, and it’s something I want to explore in depth later as I feel it could be an important learning point for future students. But ultimately… I don’t regret the choice I made as I made some excellent friends who all share a core passion – and I do believe I did the right thing in the end by pursuing with University a subject and field I genuinely enjoy and have an interest in (as opposed to a degree just to get a job). Despite all that I feel about the misgivings and inadequacies of the Kingston Creative Writing course from a purely academic standpoint… I’ve had the privilege to meet some great people and that has made the experience a net positive, and I can actually say that my writing is markedly better than what it was.

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I do look back at the time a few years ago when I was mulling over this big decision – was it the right one? Time will tell. Right now, I don’t regret it fundamentally; again I have a lot of mixed feelings about Kingston as an institution… but I’m actually thrilled and proud of myself for this achievement, considering my road to University was a meandering and winding one.

But, as Charlotte said in her post, the answer to the inevitable questions of “what now?” are prominent. For the time being it’s relaxing to be able to work on my personal projects again but I’m determined not to rest on my laurels. I’ve started working on something new while I let The Thaw sit between edits, but I’m also taking a long look at where I stand here, at 28, and where it is I want to go. And you know what, I’m finally challenging the comfort zone mentality.

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Do I feel different after graduating? I’d say yes – it’s the end of one chapter of my life and the beginning of something new and exciting – and although I mention it frequently, my age is ultimately irrelevant to this. Despite my constant concerns about the academic quality of my course… it’s an achievement nonetheless and that shouldn’t be sniffed at!

Once again, and because I am a terrible procrastinator, I would like to sincerely thank all that supported me through University – to Charlotte, Rosie, Tom and many others (some of whom I won’t link to as a courtesy) for being excellent classmates and friends; to all those who know me who supported me through good times and bad; and lastly to my longstanding friend Sam for being a wise counsel about his own experience studying Creative Writing at Portsmouth that was the genesis of all this – let’s just say, you ain’t seen nothing yet!

Miscellaneous

Kingston University: Things on my mind approaching year 2

Edit: my friend Alice also posted about her experiences of the first year of university. Read her post too!

Later this week I will be getting started on my second year at Kingston University studying Creative Writing with English Literature, and it’s as good a time as any to reflect on what I picked up on during my first year – not so much academically; rather, what skills I’ve picked up and what I’ve learned about myself during my first year.

Why am I doing this? I really feel it’s important, with university, to take away some personal improvement as well as the purely academic stuff. I definitely feel that my writing has improved as a direct result of what I’ve been learning in my studies so far. This is great! But I feel it’s definitely worth a quick bit of reflection too on how it’s shaping up for me, personally.

Before I started at Kingston I was unsure if returning to education – I’m in my mid twenties now – was something I was able to do. Was I too old? Could I re-adapt to the rigours of study? I recall my A-levels with some affection, but I was never quite totally fond of things like exams. I guess it was a heavy dose of reservation and doubt about my own abilities – like most writers, I suppose, we all seem to think we’re terrible hacks.

Long-term readers may recall that I started a course, initially, with the Open University (a distance-learning institution in the UK which I feel has a bit of an unfair reputation as “not a proper university”). I found it especially useful; my results of my assessments were really good and, considering that the Open University requires a lot of discipline to keep up, especially if you’re studying from home and have all the necessary distractions and I was pleased I had the willpower to see the first year through. The only disappointment I had was the relatively slow progress of studying one module a year; this meant I still would only just be starting the actual creative writing aspect I was interested in about now.

Approaching my first day of Kingston was a bit of a challenge – a lot of nerves and anxiety. This was a big change, and as a pretty heavily introverted person, I get very suspicious about change to things. And yeah, I went away from those first few days – where I felt totally out of the comfort zone to which I was accustomed – genuinely questioning if I’d done the right thing.

I would say two things have made my first year at Kingston really good and really empowering, in that I feel like I made the right choice. First: my grades are pretty darn good, even for the aspects of the studies of first year I truly hated. There was definitely parts of my first year I enjoyed more than others; I didn’t care for my module focusing on literary theory, but I still (somehow) managed to knock it out of the park in the assessment. I certainly enjoyed my creative writing seminars and lectures and feel I gained a lot from them that has already made a material difference in my writing (heck, I feel confident enough to try writing a novel again).

Secondly (largely due to my seminars) I’ve mixed with a lot of people and I think there’s a great bond between our group. Funnily enough, I’m part of a pretty great Facebook group chat and I feel that, in a strange sense, has helped me overcome the boundaries I have in terms of real life socialising (likely to do with my in-progress dealings with my mental health) and, better, feel a part of a group and included. I do feel that, through this, I have a group of people who I know at Kingston now and it certainly gets past the feeling of apprehension about being totally alone in this big place. Plus, in terms of work, it’s great to have a group so ready to discuss each other’s writing; there’s a definite sense of camaraderie and respect for each other not just as writers but as friends too.

But yeah, it wouldn’t be all rosy-cheeks going into second year. I know I need to be less distracted and focus more on my work; even though I did well in first year, that is not a licence for complacency. No, I can’t “skip the reading” if I forget. No, I can’t sleep through the occasional 9AM start. Yes, I do have a job as well as my studies and I’ve balanced it well, but I need to make sure I keep up that momentum. It’s only going to get… I don’t want to say “tougher”, but more challenging and I need to be ready to face those challenges, but I feel I’m definitely in a better position now than I was a year ago to go get ‘em!